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Fuck Roseanne
01:50
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***NOTE***
I wrote this song before knowing that Roseanne Barr is a transmisogynist/racist, so fuck Roseanne tbh
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I wish that I could be just like Roseanne, never, ever, ever, ever
Giving a damn about the way I act and the way that I am
Always responding back with some witty retort
And I could make a powerful statement while keeping it short
And I wish that I were special to just about anyone
And I'm not counting family, cause man, that's just dumb
I mean the people I like and the ones I admire
Never reciprocate and that just fuels the fire
For the passion I have for those select few
And I know that's fucked up, but man I've got some issues
I think it all ties back to when my parents divorced
And I just bottled it up, not having any recourse
And a lack of meaningful relationships have hardened me Down to an aversion to making eye-contact, never being around
So I wish that I could be just like Roseanne, never, ever, ever, Ever giving a damn about the way I act and the way that I am
Always responding back with some witty retort
And I could make a powerful statement while keeping it short
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I'm Sorry
02:41
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Well I wish I could amount to anything besides my shitty self and my level of deprecation is at the forefront of my mental health and I'll try to cope and rationalize and say it's worth my time, but when all of my expectations are so low, that I'm just waiting around to die
(Pick it and it'll never heal)
And I could blame it on my father for blaming it all on my struggling mother and his level of self-denial borders on the cusp of something viral and I hope it hasn't spread to me and laced within my DNA, but I guess this is coming clean, for what it's worth, I have an awful lot to say
Growing up, I had a friend; at least I think I did, I hope that's not pretend and we'd pull apart roly poly's and see their innards leaking out so slowly and I claim I feel bad for doing it, but at the time, there was such wonderment and now I wonder if I myself am all that different
And I just don't wanna drink alone for one more goddamned night and I don't wanna feel like this every day for the rest of my life, I need to call my grandma more, I need to make more time, I need to call my mom some more and tell her I'm doing fine, everything is fine
Everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine
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So you're leaving on a train to go back to wherever you call home well my friend, I'll say so long and wish you luck wherever you may roam, our time is deleting and my lies are revealing all the happy thoughts that I've wished for you and oh, how I know that I've stooped so low in trying to prevent what we outgrew
And I will try and save some face in trying not to come off so desperate, but can you really blame me when the only thing that I'll have is what I can't forget? It's hard to perceive this in a manner objective, but I know that you'll be so much better off and I'll continue with the trend of not having any friends close enough to help see me through this absolve
And I just need to get my feelings straight, I mean we have another year before we try, my disposition for jealousy makes me a shitty person and I'm also terrible at goodbyes, but if we could meet up somewhere later down the line, that'd be more than I could ever hope to hear
With these ultimatums and hallucinations, into your life I'll try to interfere
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Opportunistic Pathogen
02:34
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I call you up, but you're never home, I think that you just wanna be left alone and I'm not one to argue with that, we need our space in our habitats, but I feel like you've done something to me, you've given me a purpose and sense of liberty and I don't have very many friends, except the ones that are a means to an end, would you hate me if I told you that I love hangin' 'round you and givin' treats to your cat, because these days it just seems to me that no one else is worth it and I hope you'll agree that we are BFF's until the very end, I'll let you come over and we can make pretend that no one else exists in the whole wide world, just you and me and a friendship observed
Because we're all facultative parasites, we don't have to have each other to live our lives, but don't you think that it'd be so sweet? To harbor 'round each other, wash, rinse and repeat until the passion ends and the empathy dies, we'll feed on each other 'til we mutually despise the co-dependency we're succumbing to and I'll long for the day before I ever met you
You call me up and I'm always home, but I don't have the nerve to even answer the phone, I'm falling short on these tendencies, y'know, fuck it, I take it back on dependency
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